Anxiety can be an emotional pain


Tux, my cat

Anxiety is something I have.  Anxiety has been something that I continue to deal with since 2008.  In 2008 was when I noticed it anyway. Sometimes I think its a curse, but I know sometimes its a blessing. A couple things that I have to do or check every night that increases my anxiety is to make sure my car is locked up, and make sure the front door is locked. Other than that, every other anxiety tends to be stuff I have very little control over at the time. When these other anxiety moments pop up, my cat actually helps me and curls up next to me (when I am home, of course). My cat seems to know when my anxiety is high.   At the following link are 15 small steps that can help people control anxiety.

To often, when anxiety gets to be too much people who have very little coping skills for such see no way out other than suicide. If you know someone who suffers from anxiety, you can help them. Share the 15 tips with them. You can save a live. Also, check out my Resource page.


Suicide is 100% Preventable. (My story).


All suicides are preventable. There is hope. If you need help call this number posted in the picture. What ever you may be dealing with, I am sorry that you may have gotten to the point where you think suicide is the best answer.  There is help. Please seek it.

When I was 11 yrs old, my grandfather committed suicide. I am not sure why. He did not leave any notes as to why he did it. Fast forward a few years, when I was 24, I was became depressed. I got help. I went to a therapist for a while. Then I started going to see a doctor for my depression (and my therapist), The doc gave me some anti-depressants, which one of the side effects of the medication was “suicidal thoughts”. You would think anti-depressants would do the opposite, but they did not. For three years I dealt with the depression with medication… and my faith. Even though I had put my faith “on the back burner” it was still there. Jesus was still there with me through it all. Jesus said to Jeremiah, (Jeremiah 29:11) ‘For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’ Mostly, it was this one verse that kept me going and gave me hope. Six months after I got back involved with church (I was involved in church from 15 yrs old to 21 yrs old). I was able to wean off the anti-depressants. I know the church isn’t the answer for everyone, but it worked for me and I am grateful for my faith. For some people, the church maybe the problem, and I apologize for that. (Future posts will talk about this.)

This is my story. Now I do suicide prevention work. I wish I could find a job doing this (I am looking), but for now I do it as a volunteer. In May 2013, I got certified as a QPR Instructor. QPR stands for Question, Persuade, Refer. Some people call it the CPR for mental health.  Any way, as a certified QPR instructor, I teach a one hour presentation for suicide prevention. In the future, I hope to get certified to teach safeTALK, which is another tactic for suicide prevention that is a three hour presentation.