The Furture of the UMC or lack thereof.

First a little bit about me before I give another opinion. I was born and baptized in the First United Methodist Church in Billings, MT.  To make a long story short, I am and have been a member of my UMC church now for almost 4 years. I love the piety and sometimes I like the polity of the United Methodist Church.

If the United Methodist Church does not support full inclusion of all people, then I feel there will be no United Methodist Church to be a part of.  There is no argument that the United Methodist Church (UMC) is not united on this issue of inclusion, specifically full inclusion of LGBTQ people. The UMC Book of Discipline calls for the inclusion of all people, but, at the same time, the Book of Discipline is contradictory when it comes to the topic of LGBTQ people. However, until LGBTQ people feel welcomed by the entire church, (or at least the majority at General Conference), there may not be a United Methodist Church 50 years from now.

Recently, the UMC Judicial Council ruled that the Social Principals in the UMC Book of Discipline, paragraphs 160-166, are only meant to serve the church as guidelines, not church law. Amen.

Here is an example of something I would change in the UMC Book of Discipline.

Now, if we can only get rid of a line in the clergy rules that states any clergy that officiates a same-gender ceremony could lose their clergy credentials.

Here is the exact phrasing from the 2008 Book of Discipline, paragraph “2702. 1. A bishop, clergy member of an annual conference ( ¶ 369), local pastor, clergy on honorable or administrative location, or diaconal minister may be tried when charged with one or more of the following  offenses: (a) immorality including but not limited to, not being celibate in singleness or not faithful in a heterosexual marriage;** (b) practices declared by The United Methodist Church to be incompatible with Christian teachings, including but not limited to: being a self-avowed practicing homosexual; or conducting ceremonies which celebrate homosexual unions; or performing same-sex wedding ceremonies

It should be written as:
2702. 1. A bishop, clergy member of an annual conference local pastor,clergy on honorable or administrative location, or diaconal minister may be tried when charged (subject to the statute of limitations in ¶ 2702.4)* with one or more of the following offenses: (a) immorality including but not limited to, not being celibate in singleness or not faithful in a heterosexual monogamous marriage; (b) practices declared by The United Methodist Church to be incompatible with Christian teachings, including but not limited to: being a self-avowed practicing homosexual; or conducting ceremonies which celebrate homosexual unions; or performing same-sex wedding ceremonies.”

*General Conference meets every 4 years to amend the Book of Discipline.

I have some LGBTQ friends, and they feel welcome at SOME United Methodist Churches, but not all of them and certainly, not in the general church overall.


Civil war in the church?

(Muffled thoughts onto paper)

Ever since 1972, United Methodists have disagreed over the inclusion of humans in the church; specifically, those who enjoy the company of others of the same gender.

Some conservative United Methodists are using the Book of Discipline (the law book of the church) much like the Pharisees in the Bible. The Pharisees had their own book of laws, and Jesus told them basically to go stick their book of laws somewhere, and follow the two greatest commandments. One, love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your mind, with all your soul, and with all your strength. Second, Love your neighbor as yourself. The rest of law hangs on these two commandments.

So what part of “Love God” and “Love your neighbor” don’t the conservative United Methodists understand?

Contradicitons in the Book of DisciplineWhen it comes to this topic of same-sex humans (aka homosexuals, still human), I believe the Book of Discipline contradicts itself in the Social Principals section.

In Paragraph 161.f Human Sexuality—We affirm that sexuality is God’s good gift to all persons.
To me, that sentence tells me that God has gifted each person their own sexuality and the UMC affirms that people are born with their sexuality.

We commit ourselves to be in ministry for and with all persons. ALL means ALL. This is why ALL congregations ought be reconciling congregations, part of the Reconciling Ministries Network; ought be welcoming congregations; welcoming of all people regardless of creed, social status, economic status, sexual orientation, gender identity, or race.

We affirm that all persons are individuals of sacred worth, created in the image of God.
If God created man in his image, then why are Christians arguing over God’s creation? God said it was good, and the UMC affirms this.

In the next paragraph, 162, section J
Equal Rights Regardless of Sexual Orientation—Certain basic human rights and civil liberties are due all persons. We are committed to supporting those rights and liberties for all persons, regardless of sexual orientation.
People are entitled to equal rights regardless of sexual orientation. How simple is that? Or is it that simple? Gay rights are human rights! I have never heard, with my own ears, a straight couple say “Our marriage is ruined because the gay guys got married”.  Same-sex couples are Humans and therefore just want to be treated as humans. And to my understanding of this sentence from the UMC Book of Discipline, human rights and civil liberties are due all people.

No doubt our church, the United Methodist Church is in a civil argument over this issue of same-gender marriage. War, not quite yet. We are not launching missiles at each other, or conducting acts or war like the Battle of Gettysburg, but lawsuits are being filed against some clergy because THEY are standing up for the human rights of marriage and civil liberties. Lawsuits are being filed against these clergy because they are putting the two greatest commandments, a head of “church” law. Much like Jesus did back in his time when he broke the sabbath to do good work, or when he overturned the tables of the money-changers.

Today, one UMC bishop stepped up and did something that no clergy in the Northern Alabama Conference would do. Bishop Melvin Talbert officiated a same-gender ceremony. Technically, the two guys were married in Washington DC back in September. But, the two guys wanted a civil ceremony in front of friends and family, and when their local clergy told them no, they kept going up the chain and eventually asked (retired) Bishop Talbert, to which he obliged. In my view, Bishop Talbert showed others what it meant to love God, and love his neighbors.

The conservative bishops in the United Methodist Church could charge Bishop Talbert for going against the rule book, however, I think that Bishop Talbert would be made out to be a martyr. Bishop Talbert could lose his clergy credentials and lose his retirement benefits.

All these lawsuits amongst clergy do not go before the United States court rooms, but the United Methodist “Supreme Court” also known as the Judicial Committee. It is actually the only level of committee that simulates the US Supreme Court and is the only level of court in the denomination.  To my knowledge, there are currently three, maybe four, pending cases before the United Methodist Judicial committee. I believe the committee only meets twice a year. So when they meet next, I for one will be paying attention to see if they follow behind the US Supreme Court, or will the Pharisees prevail and the UMC will have some martyrs of their own.

If the United Methodist Church wants the slogan or motto of “Open Hearts, Open Minds, Open Doors” then they have got a lot of changes to make, or repeal the motto. No church should use that motto unless they are a “Reconciled Church”.  Amen.methodist_logo1

*Changes can only be made every four years at General Conference; next General Conference is in 2016 in Portland, Oregon.

*All references to the Book of Discipline are that of the 2008 edition.

Suicide Prevention and the United Methodist Church?? Yep!

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For the past 5 months, I have been teaching QPR Suicide Prevention classes.  For the past 3 years, I have also been involved in the United Methodist Church, a denomination I was baptized in shortly after I was born.

What does the two have in common? What does the UMC Book of Discipline/Book of Resolutions have to say about suicide or suicide prevention? Does the UMC have any stance on the topic?

Actually, yes, it does in several locations:

  1.      Paragraph 161.N) Suicide—We believe that suicide is not the way a human life should end. Often suicide is the result of untreated depression, or untreated pain and suffering. The church has an obligation to see that all persons have access to needed pastoral and medical care and therapy in those circumstances that lead to loss of self-worth, suicidal despair, and/or the desire to seek physician-assisted suicide. We encourage the church to provide education to address the biblical, theological, social, and ethical issues related to death and dying, including suicide. United Methodist theological seminary courses should also focus on issues of death and dying, including suicide.

 A Christian perspective on suicide begins with an affirmation of faith that nothing, including suicide, separates us from the love of God (Romans 8:38-39). Therefore, we deplore the condemnation of people who complete suicide, and we consider unjust the stigma that so often falls on surviving family and friends.

We encourage pastors and faith communities to address this issue through preaching and teaching. We urge pastors and faith communities to provide pastoral care to those at risk, survivors, and their families, and to those families who have lost loved ones to suicide, seeking always to remove the oppressive stigma around suicide. The Church opposes assisted suici
de and euthanasia.

This paragraph in the Book of Discipline encourages me that my church stands behind me to help prevent suicides. Although we, as a church, are not doing a very good job of helping prevent suicides. My church is part of the Yellowstone Annual Conference (YAC), and the YAC, in partnership with Rocky Mountain Annual Conference make up the Mountain Sky Episcopal Area. Which includes the states of Wyoming, Montana, Idaho, Utah, and Colorado; all 5 states are in the top 10 in the nation for having the highest rates of suicide.

2.       Resolution 2121. Suicide: A Challenge to Ministry: The apostle Paul, rooted in his experience of the resurrected Christ, affirms the power of divine love to overcome the divisive realities of human life, including suicide:

For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.        (Romans 8:38-39)

Paul’s words are indeed sources of hope and renewal for persons who contemplate suicide, as well as for those who grieve the death of friends and family members who have committed suicide. These words affirm that in those human moments when all seems lost, all may yet be found through full faith.

A Christian perspective on suicide thus begins with an affirmation of faith: Suicide does not separate us from the love of God.

Unfortunately, the church throughout much of its history has taught just the opposite, that suicide is an unforgivable sin. As a result, Christians, acting out of a sincere concern to prevent suicide, often have contradicted Christ’s call to compassion.

For example, victims have been denounced and presumed to be in hell, and families have been stigmatized with guilt and inflicted with economic and social penalties.

The purpose of this statement is to challenge and guide our caring ministries to reduce the number of suicides and to share  God’s grace so that the lives of those touched by suicide may be enriched, dignified and enabled for ministry to others.

Demography of Suicide

[stats from this resolution are out dated and therefore not included in this blog post.]

Suicide rates vary by age, gender and ethnicity but affects all peoples, regardless of education or socioeconomic status. The highest rate of suicide generally occurs among white males in later life. Among some Native American and Alaskan Native groups, however, rates among youth are several times higher that the US population as a whole. About 80 percent of those who commit suicide are male, but females are much more likely to attempt suicide. 

“It is generally agreed that not all deaths that are reported as suicides are reported as such. Deaths may be misclassified as homicides or accidents where individuals have intended suicide by putting themselves in harm’s way and lack of evidence does not allow for classifying the death as suicide. Other suicides may be misclassified as accidental or undetermined deaths in deference to community or family.” (National Strategy for Suicide Prevention, 2001; p.32)

Risk and Protective Factors of Suicide

Specific groups in society appear more vulnerable to suicide than others, especially if they experience certain precipants (events in their lives such as disease, loss of family, friends, job, severe trama, or other stress factors) and have easy access to a method for ending their lives, that is, if they are in an enabling environment. Studies show that 90% of those who die by suicide suffer from a diagnosable mental illness, substance abuse, or both. These factors—vulnerability, precipitating events, enabling environment—must be recognized and addressed if there is to be any reduction to the suicide rate.

Youth experience alienation and rejection by society, family, and the church when dealing with sexual-identity issues, including homosexuality. For many youth, the only perceived way out is suicide.

Social interconnections, social support and life skills are shown to provide protection from suicide. These methods can be learned, and youth training, such as that taught annually by the Arkansas Youth Suicide Prevention Commission, is a major force for suicide intervention and prevention.

Societal Attitudes

The prevailing attitudes of society, both secular and religious, have been to condemn the victim and ignore the victim’s family and friends

There are always two parties to a death; the person who dies and the survivors who are bereaved . . . the sting of death is less sharp for the person who dies than it is for the bereaved survivor. This, as I see it, is the capital fact about the relation between the living and the dying. There are two parties to the suffering that death inflicts; and in the apportionment of the suffering the survivor takes the brunt.

—Arnold Toynbee, from Man’s Concern with Death

Churches have denied funerals and memorial services to bereaved families. Victims’ remains have been banned from cemeteries. Medical examiners have falsified records for families so they can receive economic aid. Federal and state surveys of attitudes toward suicide confirm a broad spectrum of responses ranging from fear, denial and resistance to widespread support for suicide prevention.  Social and religious stigma is widespread. One report told of a long-time teacher of church youth who lost her son to suicide. When she returned to her class a few weeks later, she was told that because her son had taken his life, she was no longer to teach. In contrast, several denominations have in recent years adopted informed and more compassionate statements on suicide for their members. Frequently mentioned are the needs to remove social stigmas that discourage youth and others from seeking the help they need and for providing mental health opportunities for those who suffer from depression and suicidal ideation. The understanding support of family and friends as a major factor in providing such effective support is now more widely appreciated.

The Church’s Response

Recognizing that the church’s historical response to suicide includes punitive measures intended to prevent suicide and that there is no clear biblical stance on suicide, the General Conference of The United Methodist Church strongly urges the employment of major initiatives to prevent suicide, following the guidelines of the National Strategy for Suicide Prevention issued by the US Department of Health and Human Services. Additionally, the General Conference recommends to the boards, agencies, institutions, and local churches of  The United Methodist Church that the ministry of suicide prevention should receive urgent attention. Survivors of loss through suicide and suicide attempts should also receive priority concern in the overall ministry of the Church. Harsh and punitive measures (such as denial of funeral or memorial services, or ministerial visits) imposed upon families of suicide victims should be denounced and abandoned. The church should participate in and urge others to participate in a full, community-based effort to address the needs of  people at risk and their families. Each annual conference and local church should respond to issues of ministry related to suicide prevention and family-support services.

It must be emphasized that suicide increases in an environment or society that does not demonstrate a caring attitude toward all persons. The church has a special role in changing societal attitudes and harmful social environment of individuals and families. To promote this effort, the church should do the following:

1. the General Board of Discipleship shall continue to develop curriculum for biblical and theological study of suicide and related mental and environmental health problems and promote the programs recommended by the American Association of Pastoral Counseling and the use of scientific research of the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, the National Institutes of Health, and other credible institutions in the private sector, such as organizations within the National Council of Suicide Prevention;

2. the General Board of Higher Education and Ministry shall develop materials for United Methodist-related seminaries to train church professionals to recognize treatable mental illness associated with suicide (e.g., depression) and to realize when and how to refer persons for treatment; it shall ensure that all pastoral counseling programs include such training and strategies for ministry survivors of suicide loss and suicide attempts ; and seek attention to suicide in courses in Bible, Christian Ethics, Preaching and Religious Education as well as Pastoral Care;

3. the General Board of Church and Society shall continue to support public policies that: (a) promote access to mental-health services for all persons regardless of age, (b) remove the stigma associated with mental illness, and (c) encourage “help-seeking” behavior;

4. embrace all persons affected by suicide, including young children, in loving community through support groups and responsive social institutions, call upon society through the media to reinforce  (following published guidelines for reporting suicide and related matters) the importance of human life and to advocate that public policies include all persons’ welfare, and work against policies that devalue human life and perpetuate cultural risk factors (i.e., nuclear armaments, war, racial and ethnic prejudice);

5. affirm that we can destroy our physical bodies but not our being in God, and affirm that a person stands in relationship to others, but in our efforts to be more compassionate and care giving, avoid glamorizing the deaths of those who take their lives, especially young people. The loss of every person is a loss in community;

6. support the United Methodist childcare institutions that provide treatment for emotionally disturbed children, youth, and their families and retirement communities that are home for those where suicide rates are highest; and

7. strengthen the youth ministries of the local church, helping the young people experience the saving grace of Jesus Christ and participate in the caring fellowship of the church.


“The church is called to proclaim the gospel of grace and, in its own life, to embody that gospel. It embodies that gospel when it is particularly solicitous of those within its number who are most troubled, and when it reaches beyond its own membership to such people who stand alone” (Dr. Philip Wogaman, professor of Christian Social Ethics, Wesley Theological Seminary).

So the highlighted part in this second section really surprised me a bit, because in my time with the church, other than reading the above, I have not heard anything about suicide prevention from any church leadership.  I shall bring it to the forefront with those I come into contact with.

We even have a resolution dealing specifically with teen sexual identity and suicide risk.

3.       Resolution 2122. Teen Sexual Identity and Suicide Risk

In the year 2003 at least 700,000 high school students will attempt suicide—one in every 13 high school students in the United States. According to the US Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, suicide rates among adults have steadied or even declined over the past few decades but teenage suicide rates have tripled.

A 1989 US Department of Health and Human Services study found that teens dealing with issues of sexual identity are two to three times more likely to attempt suicide than are other youth.

The United Methodist Church, in Social Principles ¶ 162.J, states: Certain basic human rights and civil liberties are due all persons. We are committed to supporting those rights and liberties for homosexual persons.

The General Conference will establish and fund a task group which will:

          •  Publish, in laypeople’s terms, a summary of current research on homosexual youth at risk for suicide;

                      •  Work with organizations currently doing research on these issues;

          •  Provide a directory of agencies working on issues of teen suicide among youth dealing with issues of sexual identity;

•  Publish a resource for congregations and families which provides accurate information, recommendations for programs, and pastoral guidance.

                   •  Make recommendations for legislative actions within The United Methodist Church;

          •  Make recommendations for programs for youth through congregations, districts, conferences, mission agencies, United Methodist Women, United Methodist Men and other organizational bodies of The United Methodist Church.

•  Report to the 2008 General Conference on its findings and work.
Adopted 2004

This section was adopted from the 2004 Book of Resolutions, and has yet to be updated even in the 2012 edition. Although, I was a bit surprised to see this line from the Book of Discipline Paragraph 162H, “Certain basic human rights and civil liberties are due all persons. We are committed to supporting those rights and liberties for homosexual persons.”  As this contradicts other parts of the Book of Discipline, which I will address in another blog pertaining to reconciling ministries.

This section tells us that teens dealing with sexual identity are at higher risk for suicide than any other peer groups.  I think any group of peers is just as much at risk as others.  It’s just not teens dealing with sexual identity, but also teens dealing with pressures in life; pressures to be perfect; pressures to have the perfect game, perfect relationship, perfect grades in school, etc…  It’s not just teens that have these pressures but also adults. Adults have pressures in life to satisfy family and friends. Adults have pressures in life to be the perfect husband or perfect wife.

** The General Conference of the UMC is the governing body that institutes changes in the Book of Discipline and the Book of Resolutions, and convenes every 4 years.

** The 1 reference from the Book of Discipline and 2 references from the Book of Resolution are taken from the 2008 editions.

Know people that are grieving after a relative/friend has committed suicide?

FACT: People are automatically at-risk if someone they know closely has committed suicide.

Want to help? Not sure what to say? Don’t want to say the WRONG thing? Read this article.

When you find out a close friend has lost a loved one, your first response may not make her feel better. Instead of consoling in a way that may not help, you’ll want to field a few pointers for giving your friend the support and love she needs during this tough time — even if you can’t be there.

DO say:

I’m coming over to ________.
Take the initiative and come over to help with something. From answering her home phone and keeping track of calls to cooking dinner, helping to make life a little easier is one way to be there for your friend.

I’m so sorry. Be genuine, be heartfelt, and be honest. Offering sympathy without any add-ons is one way to share that you care, especially when you’re not sure what to say.

I’m here for you: This might sound weird and maybe a bit uncomfortable, but just holding your friend’s hand or sitting next to her while she’s grieving is OK. Don’t feel pressured to start a conversation or push for details — just be there.

Share your favorite memory: From a silly story to a special moment, memories of the deceased are good to share.

There’s no time limit: If you’re not sure how to respond to the news, take a step back and give it some thought. It’s OK to send a short note or flowers and then offer heartfelt condolences personally when you can.

This totally sucks. Just say it. Death sucks, and the situation sucks.

I’m delivering groceries: She’s probably already got a freezer full of casseroles, so order a fresh selection of produce to be delivered. Or offer to come on over and stock her shelves.

I’m going to call tomorrow. Follow up the next day and the next to let your friend know you’re there for her if she needs to talk.

I love you. Simple and sweet, offering your true support to a grieving friend is helpful and healing.

Read on for more suggestions.

DON’T say:

I’ve totally been there.
You may have experienced loss in your life, but it’s different from what your friend is going through. Keep the focus on her right now.

Everything happens for a reason. Your friend isn’t feeling like the death of her loved one is part of a master plan. Instead offer comfort and support without clichés.

He’s in a better place now. Why should the deceased be anywhere other than with loved ones? And some aren’t necessarily religious, which makes this a potentially offensive comment.

It’s time to put this behind you. When someone’s just passed away, there’s a certain amount of grieving that needs to happen — and there’s no time limit. The deceased loved one remains part of your friend forever, so suggesting she compartmentalizes the death is off base.

Let me know if you need something. While grieving a loss, your friend may not be in a place where she actually knows what she needs. Help with day-to-day chores and pick up her dry cleaning or come over and clean her house.

Be strong. When dealing with a loss, there’s often a feeling of helplessness. Suggesting that your friend should man up or face the situation creates frustration. This is a time when it’s totally OK to feel sad, lonely, and upset, and you want to encourage your friend to feel comfortable to do that.

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Why do I what I do?

I often get asked now days “Why do you do suicide prevention?” I often tell them about my grandfather and my own history with depression and having had suicidal thoughts when I was on anti-depressants. ImageThis is the only picture that I have of my grandfather Lloyd and myself. I think I was about four or five months old in this picture. This is my Grandfather Moreland that committed suicide on May 13, 1996, at age 66.

You may call me crazy after you read the rest of this blog post…
Have you ever had one of those “out of body experiences”?  When I was younger, probably about 2-3 yrs after his death, I felt like his spirit came into my room and laid in me.  And I feel that he is sorry for what he did, and he is with me for the cause.

A story to be shared

A dear friend of mine recently posted on Facebook about her son, who committed suicide 13 years ago, August 31, 2000. With her permission, I am sharing her post:

This is my “shattering day.” The day that is split into two pieces…the piece where Todd is with us, and the piece where Todd is gone. I can’t go back and change it, so why do I want to go back at all? Because I want to be there in the piece of the day when Todd is here, and I want to talk to hImageim. To understand. To cry with him. To punch a punching bag until he’s not mad any more. To have him flip my hair up in back of me. To have him hug me. To learn more about this child that I lost after 13 years 5 months and 15 days. I haven’t learned enough yet, Todd. You need to come back and teach me. My heart shattered, my mind splintered, my soul was cut to pieces when you left. I don’t hear, see or feel things the same as I did. Some things I can’t feel at all, some things I feel so powerfully that I can’t breathe. I hate this day, Todd. I hate it. I don’t want to know that you’re not here. Just for today, let me pretend that I’ll see you later tonight…not the way you were at 11:42 p.m., but the way you were earlier, wearing your sweaty football uniform, devouring pizza, making plans with Mark to go fishing over the Labor Day weekend. You could have done that, you know. It would have been good. You would have been okay. Safe. Loved. Now you are missed beyond words, and loved beyond time. I know you shattered too, kid. Someday, we are going to meet up and put those pieces back together the way they should have been in the first place. Until then…I’m keeping my hair long enough that if you want to give it a flip…you can. ~Vicki S. W.

Remember people, suicide is one of the most preventable causes of death we have today. Help someone. Ask someone if they are suicidal. Listen to them, persuade them, help them seek help. Call the National suicide hotline at 1-800-273-8255.

Anxiety can be an emotional pain


Tux, my cat

Anxiety is something I have.  Anxiety has been something that I continue to deal with since 2008.  In 2008 was when I noticed it anyway. Sometimes I think its a curse, but I know sometimes its a blessing. A couple things that I have to do or check every night that increases my anxiety is to make sure my car is locked up, and make sure the front door is locked. Other than that, every other anxiety tends to be stuff I have very little control over at the time. When these other anxiety moments pop up, my cat actually helps me and curls up next to me (when I am home, of course). My cat seems to know when my anxiety is high.   At the following link are 15 small steps that can help people control anxiety.

To often, when anxiety gets to be too much people who have very little coping skills for such see no way out other than suicide. If you know someone who suffers from anxiety, you can help them. Share the 15 tips with them. You can save a live. Also, check out my Resource page.

Suicide is 100% Preventable. (My story).


All suicides are preventable. There is hope. If you need help call this number posted in the picture. What ever you may be dealing with, I am sorry that you may have gotten to the point where you think suicide is the best answer.  There is help. Please seek it.

When I was 11 yrs old, my grandfather committed suicide. I am not sure why. He did not leave any notes as to why he did it. Fast forward a few years, when I was 24, I was became depressed. I got help. I went to a therapist for a while. Then I started going to see a doctor for my depression (and my therapist), The doc gave me some anti-depressants, which one of the side effects of the medication was “suicidal thoughts”. You would think anti-depressants would do the opposite, but they did not. For three years I dealt with the depression with medication… and my faith. Even though I had put my faith “on the back burner” it was still there. Jesus was still there with me through it all. Jesus said to Jeremiah, (Jeremiah 29:11) ‘For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’ Mostly, it was this one verse that kept me going and gave me hope. Six months after I got back involved with church (I was involved in church from 15 yrs old to 21 yrs old). I was able to wean off the anti-depressants. I know the church isn’t the answer for everyone, but it worked for me and I am grateful for my faith. For some people, the church maybe the problem, and I apologize for that. (Future posts will talk about this.)

This is my story. Now I do suicide prevention work. I wish I could find a job doing this (I am looking), but for now I do it as a volunteer. In May 2013, I got certified as a QPR Instructor. QPR stands for Question, Persuade, Refer. Some people call it the CPR for mental health.  Any way, as a certified QPR instructor, I teach a one hour presentation for suicide prevention. In the future, I hope to get certified to teach safeTALK, which is another tactic for suicide prevention that is a three hour presentation.